kj ate jap food from arts yest.
she is eating it again now.

i just finished my last tuition.
for this yr.
and the next.
i feel so relieved.
think i will miss the kids thou. :(

anyway just to update on night cycling on friday night.
my all-time favorite hall event.
thanks for being my partner pf.
despite the lack of "romance", i had a good time.
and i am so proud i can now cycle you. :)

ok, from now on, kj is gg to be a hardworking girl.

i think i have a habit to blog in the mornings.
i noe pple usually write their diaries at the end of the day.
i dun understand either.
i just feel that the start of the day seems like a good time to recollect my thoughts.
to do some thinking and planning for the rest of the day.
but somehow i my plans never follow thru.
maybe i should kick this habit. :(

anyway, thanks my dear hf, for adding a new accessory to my blog
i like it alot and i'm touched. :)

thanks ayeme for jogging with me.
endorphins work for me :)

thanks pf, for treating me to donuts.
even though it is right after my run. :)

thanks jo for leaving me a note before u left for the night.
it made me feel that u care, knowing that i will be feeling lost wondering where u went. :)

thanks rachel and clarice, for solving so many of my blogger problems.
it is heartening to know that u 2 know so much better than me and are so willing to help. :)

thanks adeline for your sweet msg de other day.
small acts of kindness really touches my heart. :)

thanks jac, for always squabbling with me.
"fighting" with you is fun. :)

to sum it up, i wan to say i am really happy with current hall life.
much as some have referred to me as the phantom, i dun really care.
i am happy in my own little world and so i dun see the need to venture out.
haha, i am so anti-social.
but i am really grateful for my wonderful neighbors and i couldnt ask for a better blockhead.

anyway, happy birthday.

kj is in a generally happy mood.
today is her free day.
below are her plans for today:

3pm: meet de SEP people to settle some matters.
4pm: go for the TATA quiz.

the thought of the TATA quiz is hilarious.
me and joshua signed up for it in a spur of a moment.
i know the elites across NUS, NTU and SMU are gonna be there.
and on top of not knowing anything in the first place, the pair of us did not even do any of the practice questions they gave nor attend any discussion sessions.
well, i guess witnessing the event would be an experience as well.
oh, btw, the event is held at UCC and we are suppose to grace it with formal wear.

on another note, The Pace, a book jac lent me is highly addictive.
i think that is the reason i keep visiting the toilet thinking that i need to shit when i really dun.
this has happened twice in the past hr, 20mins each.
i guess it gives me a reason to read.
when i'm in my room, i feel a compelling obligation to do my work instead.
gosh, i think i am getting back to reading and i like that. :)

i am touched by my fren.
much as i dun believe in god, thanks for helping me pray.
i appreciate it alot.
anyway, mummy is much better alr!
sometimes, i think maybe god does exist :)

anyway i cant believe the extent of my forgetful-ness.
i just woke up from a 15hrs nap and i realised i was still wearing my contacts from yesterday.
which means the lens have been in my eye for more than 24hrs.
gosh, no wonder my eyes hurts.
now pls dun question me abt my sore eye.

i am so glad she's ok.
but yet i cant stop crying from the scare.

wow.
i am proud of myself.
for completing the 5km run without stopping.
i am damn exhausted now.

today seems to be a charity day.
the GE run, and after that we saw this long lasagne outside raffles city shopping centre.
it is the longest lasagne ever.
it goes around the shopping centre.
i bought a portion for $10.

den at 1015 usha vid and sherms left and i started to make my way to millenia walk to get munchy's donuts for tiantian.
stopped over at shilin to get food for jo but they open at 12pm.
so i bought a 1A curry puffs.
when i finally found millenia walk, i found out munchy opens only at 12pm too!
man, wad lazy bums!
anyway i den made my way to suntec and there i saw Shilin alr open and doing business.
i bought more food for jo and queued for donuts factory coz i just felt like my purpose of de day was to buy donuts.

thereafter i went to order jac's pizza and it is only after paying i realised i have to wait for 30mins.
so i just slacked at coffee bean alone.
and honestly, with my bag filled with 8 bananas, and many other random stuff and also lugging bags of food, i was not a sightly sight at all.
oh ya, since i had to wait for jac's pizza, it was past 12 alr so i went back to millenia and get another box of donuts, this time from munchy's.
gosh, now i am back in my room and so tired i feel like hibernating again.
not to mention i have now loads of food.
and u noe wad? i think i just spent my new weekly allowance all on food. :(

anyway, iris is quite accurate!

kj just had her letter writing test.
despite some silly mistakes she alr know she has committed, kj is glad its over :)

kj would like to retract her boobie post but she doesn't know how.
she has concluded that wad she was feeling back den was most prob due to the inflation of her mammary glands during disintegration of her uterus lining.
kj is in a generally happy mood now coz she is fully clothed and does not feel restrictive.
lets hope she stays this way. :0

sometime pple put others down without knowing it.
and sometimes the person being put down just doesn't know how to express her unhappiness.

kj slept at 8pm last night.
she woke up to at 730 this morning ahd skipped 200 times.
could she finally be changing for a healthier lifestyle?

i slept from 9pm last night to 7 this morning.
i love hibernating.

anyway i am happy.
we finally handed up the biz comm project yest!
and i managed to do some editing before that.
the whole report seems to be of a reaosnable standard to me.
now its de presentation left!

i think i am gaining all the weight clarice lost.
it sucks when u put on the jeans and finds out it is getting tighter. :(

*obscene post

ok. this is going to be a rather weird post.
but i really want to say it.
coz its My blog.
and i wan to be able to say anything i wan.
anytime i feel like it.
i am asusming this blog entertains no non-females.
if u happen to be that weaker gender, pls stop reading NOW. :)

i hate boobs.
i really do.
i mean, i dun usually adore them but i've always been on reasonable terms with them.
but recently they're getting on my nerves.
i guess the hatred stems from having to wear something called a bra to protect/hide them.
i dun understand.
it is freaking uncomfortable.
i cant lie down the way i always do when i watch tv on my laptop.
n i just feel restricted all de time.
not to mention those warm unbearable nights.
very often lately i have resorted to not wearing a bra whenever possible.
and even more often i have had to look for a shirt that will help me hide that fact.
that shall be one of the top criteria for me buying a home tshirt in future.
gosh, i think i will miss being able to be so carefree when i have to live opp guys in sweden.
i guess i will only bring sports bra there.
at least they dun cut or bind.

sigh.
wad a boobie issue.
as if menses and pregnancy and emotionals aren't enough.
i guess god alr decided there can nv be equality of the sexes. :(

life and death

call me childish.
i dun think i have learnt how to accept life and death.
not yet.
even at this age, i often think about why pple have to die.
and de irrationale side of me would sometimes hope for advanced science to one day be able to make us all immortals.

i recall when i was young.
i used to stay up thinking about death when i couldnt sleep.
i thought about what it would feel like to be dead.
would i still be able to love, and to feel pain?
and de intense thoughts would scare me so much i teared.

i think i get too emotional when i hear bad news because i will start imagining myself in that scenario.
this time, things are really bad.
she will be turning 21 in 10 days time.
i really hope she's fine.
take care.

an eventFOOL day in kj's life

i was on time for my 10am project meeting at lido this morning.
but my group leader was more than half an hr late :(
we spent FOUR hrs and still have not finished our project.
it is due on mon.
i think i suck.
i know our report quality is not up to standard.
i could do something about it.
but i dun feel like.
coz i noe it will be hell lot of work and i am doubtful i can complete it by mon.
so i just have to let it be.
so much for striving for gd grades this sem.

de plan after proj meeting was to meet usha vid sherms and company at city to go collect our GE run goodie bag.
ALL of them were late so i took de time to go queue for donut factory donuts.
MY dream to carry those donut boxes.
thank god de queue was not that long when i joined it.
de damn blur me realised i have no cash with me when it was nearing my turn.
thank god i called usha and she rushed down to save me.
we bought a dozen of donuts and finished them all.
my fav is choc peanut butter.
i think the donut craze has died.
i also think kj has kicked her late habit.

vids brought the baby out today and it was totally the centre of attention.
he really is adorable and he lets anyone carry him and sleeps on anyone's shoulders.
highlight of the day was vid having to clean his poo.
man, the long day with the fuss of the baby has made me realise it will be a while before i would be ready for motherhood.

oh after we collected out goodie bags at millenia walk, we past by munchy's donuts and had to buy another box of 6.
that makes 18 donuts in one afternoon.
talk about high calories and sugar level.

anyway, i insisted on getting a haircut in preparation for interview on wed.
and so i persisted in my aim after everyone went home.
it is horrible so i am hoping i will grow out of it soon.
gosh, i miss my long hair.

i am now in hall on a lonely saturday night.
even my jo who i always expects to be there is not ard.
i have concluded that i am not the most independent person on earth.
bravery is also not one of my characteristics.
the deserted and silent hallway freaks me out.

kj's new resolution

kj screwed up her midterms.
kj promises to study hard from now on.
kj really wans to do well this sem.

i hope my bf had a nice bday.

kj at home

my stomach hurt so much last night during tuition that i had to leave halfway.
went to the doctor's and it was stomach flu and mild food poisoning.
pls dun buy grapes from sheng siong anymore.
they are either mouldy or worm-infested.

anyway i got an interview with AMD!
its next tues thou, and i am thinking whether i should skip class for it!
my dad is annoying, he wans to go tell the HR i'm his daughter and all.
if he really does that, i will screw up the interview on purpose.
damn. shouldnt have told him yet.

it is good to be home and sleep with my mum.
petty kai was still angry with me last night though.
she refuses to tok to me.
but weirdly, she was all right this morning when she wanted to borrow my shoes. :)

blogging is addictive coz this is the first thing i am doing once i get up.
i shall go wash up now while waiting for my dad to bring back fishball noodles for me.

phew

i dun like it when people come up just to fish gossip out of me.
especially if they know its true but they just want me to confirm it.
even more hated is that we were never best of friends.
not to mention the gossip is about someone close to me.
and just coz i dun show my distaste for such behavior, i dun think you should do it.
and you know wad, the truth hurts.
coz i din even get to hear it from the person i care about.

on a lighter note, my last midterm ends today!
so back to happy carefree life for now! :)

!!!

i am scared.
even thou i try not to show it, i am really scared.

chicken porridge

i had chciken porridge for lunch today.
not the one that i always have at biz canteen but the instant kind that comes in a packet.
its not as bad prob coz clarice added in wtaer to make it taste less salty so our livers dun fail before we reach the age of 30.
i have slept for 14hrs in the past 18hrs.
time to do something constructive, like eating apples.

amazed*

wow!
i think i am constantly being impressed by the advancements of technology.
it was my first time using NUSCAST today and i like it!
it makes me wonder thou, why people in hall even bother having a tv.

summing up kj's day:
kj cabbed to tuition again.
kj has flu again.
kj slept on de bus and ended up at fong seng again.
kj left her yakult on de bus again. (ok, so de last time was my ipod cover!)

talk about learning yr lesson.

random note: my feet stinks from wearing wet sneakers de whole day.

i dun understand

3 midterms down in 6hrs.
i shld feel relieved.
or glad at least.
but i feel sucky.
Akon's "Lonely" playing on my laptop sounds like it's mocking me.
where are all my neighbors? :(

sigh

i really need to study.
i am actually starting to get abit stressed.
i gave myslef almost the whole week off from lessons and tuition yet it seems like i've accomplished nothing.
i detest management science.
i swear i know nothing about it except that de hated linear programming is involved.
i dread 18hrs later but i cant wait for 24hrs later.

random

woah! i am so excited i just found my long-lost blog!
i am seriously trying hard to refrain from blogging more den once a day!
even if its just rambling nonsensical nonsense.
like now.
lets see how long i can keep this up. :)

i am a lucky girl

i always thought that i am a blessed child & that people are nice.
today's incident reaffirmed what people would call my idealistic world.
second time someone picked up my matric card and emailed me.
i shall keep counting of these good deeds i am receiving.

testing